DISCLAIMER:
The characters in the following story belong to Shoot the Moon and Warner
Brothers Productions. No infringement is intended. I am not making a profit, just
writing for fun. The first part of Lee and Amanda's conversation at the dock is
taken from the episode 'Over the Limit', written by Tom Ropeleski.
AUTHOR:
Kim
SUMMARY:
An answer to the challenge to write a different aspect to the end of "Over
the Limit". What if Amanda had turned Lee down on his offer of dinner?
Does not follow canon.
AUTHOR'S
NOTE: There are a lot of opinions about this episode and the interaction
between Lee and Amanda. This story is just in fun.
LIMITS
On
the drive to the Sullivans' boat, Amanda sat silently in the passenger seat of
Lee's Corvette. She stared unseeingly out the window at the passing scenery, absorbed
in her own thoughts.
Lee
had all but thrown her out of his apartment when they had arrived and found
Leslie there. She cringed, remembering the sudden stab of jealousy she'd felt.
Leslie had dark hair and eyes, was slender and about Amanda's own height. She
was nothing like his previous girlfriends. She seemed intelligent, mature and
well, normal.
She
had also been friendly; she had wanted Amanda to stay for dinner. Lee had
quickly diffused that by removing the extra plate Leslie had set out on the
table. Not that Amanda would have been able to endure such an evening, anyway,
but he had been so abrupt and anxious to get rid of her! She still couldn't
figure out why he'd acted so unnerved.
In
the elevator ride down to the lobby of Lee's apartment building, Amanda had
been furious. Furious at Lee's refusal to take the as case seriously as she
did, furious at his desire to get rid of her and furious with her own
ridiculous jealousy! Why should she care who he was dating?
Lee
was an enigma to Amanda - one she had been trying to understand for a long
time. Undeniably, she had fallen halfway in love with him. At times she had
thought and hoped that he felt the same way. Now, she knew that she had
imagined any attraction on his part.
Lee
was her best friend and she did want him to be happy. So, she avoided letting
her feelings show, lest he turn tail and run from even their friendship. She
could live without Lee Stetson as a romantic interest, but she didn't want to
even think of losing his friendship.
Lee
glanced over at his unusually silent partner. She sat with her hands folded in
her lap, watching the passing landscape with what seemed to be rapt attention.
He
recalled for the thousandth time calling Leslie 'Amanda'. A stupid mistake, but
a telling one. When he'd turned to face her, she'd been wearing the dress he'd bought
her. 'I should have said she looked lovely,' he thought. 'But I just stood
there, not saying a word, remembering instead what it had looked like on
Amanda.'
Remembering
that incident also called to his mind how he'd asked Amanda where she'd found
her dress. Cringing again, he thought of how delighted she'd been when he'd
asked about it and her flat, "Oh," when he informed her he wanted to
get one for a "friend."
Lee
recalled rushing Amanda out of his apartment. He hadn't meant to be rude or
pushy, but he had felt distinctly uncomfortable with both women in his
apartment. He almost felt...guilty.
Caught.
For
her part, Amanda had acted jealous, he realized with a small smile. As jealous
as he always felt when he saw her with other men. Alan, Joe - any man who even remotely
threatened to take her away from him.
A
flood of apprehension overcame him. Suddenly he didn't want to spend the
evening with Leslie at all, but with his partner. It was time to stop hiding
from the inescapable fact that he was deeply attracted to Amanda.
"Amanda,
are you okay?" he asked now, his eyes darting from her to the road, then
back to her.
"Yeah,
I'm fine." She turned to look at him with a reassuring smile. "Just
thinking."
"About
what?" he questioned.
Amanda
squinted in the sun and began fishing in her purse for her sunglasses.
"Oh, you know. Stuff."
"Stuff?
Care to elaborate?" Lee asked. He was relieved that she had smiled at him.
Maybe she wasn't upset with him anymore. She never stayed annoyed with him for
long. Honestly, he didn't know how she put up with him.
"Oh,
well," Amanda stalled, trying to think of something to tell him. "I'm
just glad that everything worked out for Elizabeth and all."
Lee
cast another glance her way as he eased the Corvette into a parking space. He
knew without a doubt that she was not being entirely honest with him, but he dropped
the subject anyway.
As
they walked down the dock, he cast glances her way. She was really beautiful,
with the wind blowing her hair off her face and turning her cheeks a rosy pink.
Lee
reached for Amanda's hand, but she pretended not to see it and casually slipped
her hand into her pocket. With a slight frown, he settled for placing his hand
on her lower back as they walked towards the Sullivans' boat.
A
few minutes later they had spoken with Elizabeth and her husband. As they
turned to head back to the car, Lee turned to face Amanda.
"Umm,
You're probably busy tonight, right? PTA meeting, Den Mother's Club?" Lee
asked, exhaling a breath.
"No,"
she answered, smiling up at him. 'What does he want? A favor, since he has a
date,' she guessed.
"What,
your mother's card club?" he continued, feeling a little hopeful. All he'd
have to do is call Leslie and beg off. . .
"Nope,"
she answered again.
"Oh!"
He paused, taking a moment to force himself to take the plunge. "Well, I
thought that maybe, uh, I thought that maybe we'd have dinner tonight. You
know, just the two of us, um, alone."
"Well,"
she responded, taken aback. 'Has he lost his mind? Sometimes I do feel like his
secretary!' she laughed inwardly. Aloud, she reminded him, "You and Leslie
have a dinner party at the Russian Embassy."
"Ahhh
- yeah," he acknowledged, fishing for words. "She won't be lonely,
believe me."
Amanda
stared at him for a moment. 'Oh, my gosh, I can't even believe this.' Finally,
she quietly replied, "Thanks, Lee, but...I think I'll pass."
She
said the words with gentle regret. Lee returned her stare. An indefinable
expression had settled on her features. He opened his mouth to say something,
then thought better of it. He fixed his gaze on the water, shoving his hands
into his pockets.
"Okay,"
he finally said, nodding casually. He looked up into her eyes, trying with
quiet desperation to hide his disappointment, which was more poignant than he could
have ever imagined. Lee Stetson was not used to women turning him down. Not
that he'd never experienced it before, but Amanda's delicate declining of his offer
felt like a kick in the stomach. It wasn't so much the words as the inscrutable
expression on her face.
"Maybe
some other time," she suggested. She felt badly, but she felt there was
nothing else to do or say. Every day that week, she had seen him come in to
work looking tousled and sleep-deprived. Amanda had heard the remarks of
Francine and others about his new girlfriend. How long had he known Leslie,
anyway? Not very long, she knew that much.
It
hurt to think that he would want her to come over for dinner after practically
flaunting his affair in her face the past few days. It also irritated her that
he seemed surprised that she had said she'd pass. 'Good old reliable Amanda,'
she thought to herself. 'She never has plans, no life of her own. Just sits
around waiting for Lee Stetson to bestow some of his attention on her!'
Still,
she had kept her words gentle and polite. He couldn't be blamed for her
churning, out of control emotions, after all. All she wanted was to get home
and away from his searching gaze. Something indescribable was happening between
them. It made Amanda feel apprehensive.
"Yeah,
okay," he said again, shifting his weight from one foot to the other.
'I've blown it this time,' he chastised himself. 'What did I think? That after
the way I've behaved the last few days she'd accept a dinner invitation from
me?'
"So,
we should get going," Amanda hinted.
They
walked down the dock and back through the parking lot to the car in silence.
They made uneasy small talk about work and other safe subjects. Lee dropped Amanda
off at home and drove home to his apartment.
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Rather
than try to wrestle out of his evening with Leslie, Lee decided to go ahead and
take her to the embassy dinner party as planned. Having dressed in his tuxedo, he
drove over to her apartment and picked her up.
Again,
when she appeared at her door in the black dress, his mind wandered to Amanda.
He completely regretted having bought Leslie a replica, it had been a terrible
mistake.
Still,
he managed to tell her that she looked lovely. They drove to the Embassy
chatting about the day's events. He was quiet and distracted all through
dinner, and Leslie said as much as they danced.
"Lee,"
she said, pulling back from his embrace. "You're completely preoccupied.
You have been all evening. What's wrong?"
"Nothing,"
he lied, swallowing hard. The truth was that he'd been racking his brain,
trying to figure out how to make right with Amanda. He knew he'd handled things
sloppily.
'Why
was I willing to get into a relationship with Leslie, but not Amanda?' he asked
himself. 'I should have been able to tell Amanda how I feel about her.'
At
the very idea of confessing his feelings to Amanda, his heart skipped a beat.
His face must have registered emotion, too, because Leslie picked up on his expression.
"What
kind of a look was that?" she asked, caressing his cheek.
For
answer, he pulled her closer so she couldn't see his face anymore. He could
smell her perfume, exotic and spicy. He realized that he even longed for the
scent of perfume Amanda wore.
It
was all wrong. Everything about this was wrong.
"I
think I'll pass," she had said. What had it been about her expression when
she spoke the words? She had been very careful in how she said it. So quiet,
yet so...definite. She hadn't been trying to hurt him or reject him and yet, he
felt as if she was pushing him away.
He
let himself pretend it was Amanda in his arms, and suddenly everything felt
right. She was a perfect fit for him in every way. He lost himself in the
fantasy and half believed he really held her instead of Leslie.
Swallowing
hard, he let himself imagine kissing her, holding her body against his as he
did in his dreams. His arms tightened around the warm body in his arms. Warm breath
caressed his neck, soft brunette hair tickled his skin.
Without
conscious thought, he breathed her name, almost too quietly for anyone to hear.
"Amanda." It was one word, one name, spoken with quiet passion.
Leslie
pulled away and gave him a funny half smile. His eyes widened, realizing what
had just happened. How could he have allowed himself to whisper Amanda's name?
"You
know," she said, cocking her head to one side, "I kind of wondered
when you called me 'Amanda' before. But I gave you the benefit of the doubt.
But now I know for sure, Lee. It's not me you want."
"Leslie,
I'm so sorry," he said helplessly, taking a step forward as she took a
step back. "I don't know what to say."
"We
had a good time together, Lee. Maybe in other circumstances, we would have had
a good relationship. I only have one question."
"What?"
he asked weakly, wondering what that question would be. His head was still
swimming from the sensations he'd evoked just thinking about Amanda.
"Why?
Why did you pursue me, when you wanted her?" she asked, looking into his
eyes with regret.
"I
can't answer that. I don't really know," he said simply. "I never
meant to hurt you, Leslie."
"I
know," she replied, nodding. "I think you need to sort out your
feelings for Amanda. If she feels half of what you obviously feel for her,
she's probably pretty confused right now. I could see it in her face when she
was at your apartment. I didn't read too much into it then, but it all fits
now."
Women
always understood about these things. She'd hit the nail on the head, and she
wasn't even aware of the whole situation. Now he knew exactly why Amanda had
turned him down, or at least he hoped he did. He had to make things right, and
soon.
Lee
nodded. "Leslie, I'm sorry. I really have to go now," he told her. He
felt like a complete jerk. He had inadvertently toyed with the emotions of two
women, not to mention scrambled his own feelings.
She
nodded, smiling sadly. She watched him stride out of the ballroom, then she
headed for the ladies room to release the tears that had been threatening to
spill down her cheeks for ten minutes.
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"Good
morning," Amanda greeted everyone cheerfully as she walked into the
bullpen the next morning.
"Good
morning," Lee returned with a weak smile, trying to catch her eye. He was
about to suggest having lunch together when Billy called Amanda into his office.
That
was the first in a long line of obstacles throughout the day that prevented him
from saying one word to Amanda. She seemed to be avoiding him at all costs, while
at the same time her manner towards him was almost overly friendly.
He
didn't get another chance to talk to her until they were both heading out that
evening. He followed her to her car and watched as she threw her purse and
sweater into the passenger seat.
"I
didn't get to see you much today," he told her.
"Yeah,
it was pretty busy," she responded with a smile.
"Amanda,"
he spoke her name nervously and stopped, unsure of how to proceed.
"Yes?"
She waited expectantly for him to finish his thought.
"Last
night, when you said you'd pass on dinner, did you mean just last night? Or did
you mean you don't enjoy having dinner with me?" His forehead puckered as
he waited for her to answer. How would she take his question?
Amanda
mulled this over in her mind. How was she supposed to answer that, anyway? She
quickly decided to play it safe. His demeanor told her one thing, but as far as
she knew, he was dating another woman.
To
Lee's surprise and chagrin, she playfully punched him in the arm. "Of
course I enjoy having dinner with you! Don't be silly. You threw me off guard
last night, since I knew you had plans with your girlfriend, that's all. I
enjoy being with you once in a while outside of work, as friends. You are my
friend, after all," she said, pausing. "Probably my best
friend."
Touched
and worried at the same time, Lee smiled nervously. "You're my best
friend, too," he said sincerely. "I thought maybe you were upset
because of Leslie and-"
She
interrupted him with an apprehensive little laugh. "Don't be ridiculous!
You've told me on several occasions we're not emotionally involved, and we're
not. Why would I be jealous of Leslie? I have no reason to be jealous of
Leslie. I can't believe you said that!"
"Amanda,"
Lee put a hand on her arm to stop her flow of words. "I didn't say
'jealous.' I said 'upset.'"
"Whatever.
Whatever you meant, I'm not. I wasn't. No." She was flustered now.
Lee
grinned. "Let's go tonight, then, huh?"
"Oh,"
she said as her eyes widened. "I don't know. . .besides, skipping out on
Leslie two nights in a row might not make her-"
"I
went to the party last night, after all," he interrupted.
"Oh,
well. That's none of my-"
Cutting
her off again, he said, "And I won't be seeing Leslie anymore."
"Oh,"
she said again, and raised her eyebrows. "I'm sorry."
"You
are?"
"Shouldn't
I be?" she asked, reaching for the handle on her car door.
He
stilled her arm with a touch. "I'm not."
"Oh,"
she replied. "Well, I'd better get-"
"What
about it?" Lee pressed.
"What
about what?" she questioned.
"Dinner!"
he replied in an aggravated tone. She was hedging, trying to get away from him.
He was tempted to press her between the car and himself and kiss her apprehension
away.
"Oh!"
She shrugged. "I guess so, then. I'll call Mother from the restaurant and
tell her where I am."
"We're
not going from here!" Lee shook his head, looking at her like she was
insane.
"Don't
we usually go from here?" she asked, tilting her head to one side.
"Yeah,
but I thought we could go home and freshen up. I'll pick you up at seven
thirty." He watched her expectantly and enjoyed the puzzled expression on
her face.
"Oh,"
she said once again. "Well, all right."
"Good."
He turned to leave, then turned around again. "Wear your black
dress." Realizing it sounded like a command, he added, "Please."
"Out
to dinner?" Her voice rose slightly with the incredulous question.
"Yeah,"
he replied as if she shouldn't be surprised. If he didn't see her in that dress
again soon, he felt he'd go crazy. Leslie in the dress had done nothing for
him.
"Okay,
then," she complied, giving him a strange look and getting into her car.
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Lee
arrived promptly at seven thirty. He'd overheard Amanda telling Billy she'd be
available all weekend since her family was out of town, so he went to the front
door and rang the bell.
Amanda
was upstairs, attempting to put her hair up. She'd been rationalizing all night
as to Lee's reason for this evening. He wanted to subtly make up for the last few
days, nothing more to it.
'After
all,' she told herself logically. 'If he wanted you, he wouldn't have gone out
with Leslie.'
Not
feeling quite confident that this was the case, she ran downstairs when she
heard the bell. Holding her hair with one hand, she opened the door with her
free one.
Lee
took in her appearance. His heart reacted wildly to the disheveled sight of
her. Her hair , held up with one hand, was escaping in tendrils through her
fingers. She was trying to hold up her dress with her other hand, as she didn't
have her shoes on yet. She looked both adorably goofy and alluring as she tried
to hold herself together.
"Hi,"
she said breathlessly. "Come on in and sit down. I'm almost ready, just
have to finish my hair. How'd you know to come to the front door? I guess you
heard me telling Mr. Melrose that Mother and the boys are out of town. If you
want something to drink, help yourself to whatever's in the fridge."
She
had disappeared up the stairs as she delivered this speech. Lee chucked to
himself, recalling how once upon a time, this would have completely irritated
him.
From
her demeanor, she certainly wasn't expecting this to be anything more that a
night out as friends. She was too casual, too relaxed. While he, on the other
hand, had damp palms and quivering stomach muscles.
"Okay,"
she said, startling him. He hadn't heard her come back downstairs. He turned,
drinking in the sight of her. 'Now, that's how that dress is supposed to look,'
he thought, satisfied.
"You
look...beautiful," he said, his voice low.
Something
in his eyes told Amanda that this wasn't a courtesy remark. He really meant
that she looked beautiful, in the truest sense of the word.
"Thank
you," she accepted the compliment, suddenly self-conscious. Her mind
flitted back to a night when she was just getting to know him. 'How do I look?'
she'd asked him. 'You look fine,' had been his answer.
"Let's
go," he smiled. Placing a hand on her back, he came into contact with bare
skin and shuddered.
"Are
you cold?" she asked innocently.
"Cold?"
Lee sputtered. On fire was more like it. "No, I'm fine."
He
helped her into the car and got in himself. They drove in silence for a few
minutes. Lee kept stealing glances at Amanda, in awe of her beauty and the
feelings coursing through him. He knew that he had to tell her tonight. He
didn't want her thinking of him as a buddy, a pal from work.
He
reached over to take her hand just as she raised it to fix a stray strand of
hair. Sighing, he diverted her hand from its course and took it firmly in his.
'Well,'
Amanda mused, 'he's on to the hand-holding avoidance tactic, I see!' She smiled
slightly. He was holding her hand so firmly, as if afraid she'd try to pull it away.
They
arrived at the restaurant and were escorted to a private corner table. It was
adorned with glowing candles and an enormous bouquet of sterling roses.
Amanda
gasped at the sight of the roses and turned to Lee. "For me?" she
asked uncertainly.
"Do
you like them?" Lee asked hopefully.
"Yes,
they're beautiful, thank you." Her words were sincere, but Lee could tell
she was confused and a little bit nervous now.
She
sat down and Lee pushed her chair in. Then he moved his own chair closer to
hers and sat down.
"I'm
glad you like them," he told her with a grin.
"I
do," she told him. "They're lovely."
"I
thought so, too, but now I don't know," he replied with a serious
expression.
"What?
Why?" she asked, perplexed.
"They
pale in comparison to you," he remarked. He picked up her hand and kissed
it tenderly.
"Oh,"
she whispered, having suddenly lost her voice.
After
consulting with Amanda, Lee ordered for them both. They enjoyed their dinner
and wine, talking and laughing quietly.
When
the waiter had cleared the table, Lee gestured toward the roses.
"Read
the card," he instructed.
Amanda's
eyes went from him to the bouquet, where she spotted a small white envelope.
She removed it from its holder and opened it. It read:
"To
Amanda,
The
woman in the nightgown and coat,
who
looked for the man in the red hat,
and
helped the Scarecrow to find his heart.
Love,
Lee"
Amanda
blinked and read the card again. She looked up at Lee, incredulous. "The
Scarecrow was looking for a brain," she said, her voice barely above a
whisper.
"Dance
with me," he stood and held out his hand to her.
She
accepted it, following him the short distance to the dance floor. He took her
in his arms and pulled her as close as he dared.
Lee
inhaled deeply, taking in Amanda's fragrance. He felt her body pressed against
his as he tightened his hold, and felt her soft hair tickle his skin.
Someday,
he'd tell her how he'd said her name twice when he was with Leslie. For now, he
relished the idea that he could say her name freely as he held her close.
"Amanda,"
he breathed.
The
sound of his voice sent shivers down her spine. She pulled away slightly to
look into his eyes.
"Yes?"
"I'm
going to kiss you," he told her breathlessly.
A
thousand things flew through her mind. Why did he want to kiss her? He'd just
come off a relationship with another woman! What about his "we're just
friends" speech? How did he know she'd accept this kiss?
Lee
gazed intently into Amanda's eyes. He'd expected her to say something, but she
was simply staring back at him wordlessly. Taking her silence as acceptance, he
leaned down slowly.
He
kissed her. All limits are barriers were crashed, broken, thrown down and
destroyed with that one breath-stopping kiss. Neither of them was prepared for
the intensity of their contact.
"Do
you want me to stop?" he asked in a low voice, kissing her jaw and neck.
"I'll stop if you want me to."
"No,"
she breathed.
Relieved,
he kissed her again, unaware of the surrounding couples watching them in envy.
"I've
wanted to do this for a long time," he whispered, the tremor in his voice
betraying him.
"You
could've fooled me," she whispered back, and captured his lips in hers.
The
End